Song-24

Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy.
Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop.
You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop.
You broke another mirror; you're turning into something you are not.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you. You will be the one screaming out.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

It's the best thing that you've ever had, the best thing that you've ever, ever
had.
It's the best thing that you've ever had; the best thing you've had has gone away.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

P.S. please don't leave me high and dry. please.

iamdecadent.

lament

i am not doing anything whatsoever with regards to practically all aspects of my life. seriously i am a failure. i ought to die.

iamdecadent.

desire

i'm going to make myself die at 50.

iamdecadent.

nothingness

iamdecadent.

thought-02

i heard my life telling me: "this is me. this is you. this is myself, this is yourself. i'm here to tell you, you're here to listen. you're here to tell me, i'm here to listen. i suck. you suck. i don't have anything worthwhile about myself to mention. you don't have anything worthwhile about myself to mention. i hope you see the light. you'd hope i've seen the light."

wished i had self-confidence. wish i had courage. wishing that i have let you know myself.

DX

joke

three tomatoes are walking down the street.
papa tomato, mama tomato and baby tomato.
baby tomato starts lagging behind.
and papa tomato gets really angry.
goes back and squishes him.
says 'ketchup'.

ketchup.

wish i could ketchup with my life.
everything about it.

DX

Song-23

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

Give me a reason to end this discussion,
To break with tradition.
To fold and divide.

Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!

I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

Give me a reason (I don't believe a word)
To end this discussion (of anything I've heard)
To break with tradition (they tell me that it's not so hard)
To fold and divide (it's not so hard)
So let's not get carried (away with everything)
Away with the process (from here to in-between)
of elimination (the long goodbye)
I don't want to waste your time.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

(Alright)
Tell me that you're alright, (Hi, everything's great)
Yeah everything is alright. (Everything's fine)
Oh please tell me that you're alright, (Hi, everything's great)
Yeah everything is alright.
(Everything's fine)
(Everything's fine)
(Everything's fine)
(Everything's fine)

P.S. everything's not alright. need to study.