Song-02

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Conquests

Tomorrow, i will be taking my promotional examinations. I took it before, and it should be fine. I hope. Suddenly i just feel so oppressed. There are no more options left for me, should i still do not make it. Hopefully i will. It is for the greater good, i think. Have i revised? Yes i did. Do i have any applied knowledge? No i do not. That is my defeat.

DX

Song-01

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rhythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?

Apologies

i guess it would be better to write in proper english. well, not properly proper, as in complete sentences. i got to apologise to you, the reader for wasting your precious time. in any way at all, i still do appreciate you into coming to my silly blog to look at me rant.
i am very proud to have a great friend who constantly gives me advice. however, i got to apologise, i did not engage in the necessary follow up. he hold me of a blog entry - girls like guys who have scars on their face, shoots off vulgarities there and then and not apologise all too frequently. he knew of my crisis, and so he told me about it. he added - chivalry is dead. you are too chivalrous. you belong to the grave. i appreciate his honesty, because not many a friend will sit you down and tell you of your flaws. he, too suggested that should i really want to find out if the other party is into oneself, so to speak; one should try flirting with some other people. it instills jealousy and bitterness, allegedly real signs to fondness of the party. i am not into that kind of experimentation, for i cannot bring myself to do it.
i am grateful for having good tutors, or teachers you might call them. however, i have to apologise, since the hour of reckoning is approaching fast; the harsh reality is coming along too. i wish to be what you desired me to be, but that may be well out of my reach.
i am grateful for having wonderful parents, who gave me this life. however, i have to apologise, i am not living it out right. you can have it back.

DX

depressed

not going to update this for a period of time. no apparent reason. feels sad. more accurately depressed. unable to convey what is sincerely felt. figures. still unable to garner courage to wear aki hoshino tee. not getting rid of it. needs cash. badly.

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confused

sabbats choosing time's here. not sure what to go for. hopefully can choose something that's with more familiar people. like familiarity. feels introverted. dislike this introversion. mixed feelings at this point of time. felt renewed faith. reality check almost cancels it. needs cash. quarter of the guardians is out. have to get it. quickstrike. feels desperate. hopes all will be well in the end.

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wishes

i wish:
-my life is not so foul
-people on buses (esp. old men) will close their legs/ not open them up too much when they're sitting
-no one blasts their music on their phones on buses
-i can save up more money
-i can be slim
-i can stop people thinking that/ calling me gay
-some people i know grow up and stop pushing their friend/ people they know when the person wants to get to another row
-to learn how to type chinese on the regular keyboard
-to promote with a h3
-that you know i care
-to know how you feel

DX