Apologies

i guess it would be better to write in proper english. well, not properly proper, as in complete sentences. i got to apologise to you, the reader for wasting your precious time. in any way at all, i still do appreciate you into coming to my silly blog to look at me rant.
i am very proud to have a great friend who constantly gives me advice. however, i got to apologise, i did not engage in the necessary follow up. he hold me of a blog entry - girls like guys who have scars on their face, shoots off vulgarities there and then and not apologise all too frequently. he knew of my crisis, and so he told me about it. he added - chivalry is dead. you are too chivalrous. you belong to the grave. i appreciate his honesty, because not many a friend will sit you down and tell you of your flaws. he, too suggested that should i really want to find out if the other party is into oneself, so to speak; one should try flirting with some other people. it instills jealousy and bitterness, allegedly real signs to fondness of the party. i am not into that kind of experimentation, for i cannot bring myself to do it.
i am grateful for having good tutors, or teachers you might call them. however, i have to apologise, since the hour of reckoning is approaching fast; the harsh reality is coming along too. i wish to be what you desired me to be, but that may be well out of my reach.
i am grateful for having wonderful parents, who gave me this life. however, i have to apologise, i am not living it out right. you can have it back.

DX